As I've been posting the A to Z of my youth, I've come to a conclusion about my passion for RPG's.
You see, I stopped buying toys around the time I was 15 years old. It wasn't that I didn't like them still, it was that I was too embarrassed to shop in toy stores. I thought people were staring at me and judging me (yeah, it's a shame, but it's who I was). So I stopped buying toys.
A few years later, I not only started gaming, but I started buying as many RPG's as I could (not really) afford. It was a real drive and it replaced toys.
I didn't realize that the new hobby filled the same space in me as the previous hobby. My RPG tastes have always been inspired and strengthened by the toys I played with and now I see it's a deeper connection than I'd previously imagined.
I don't necessarily regret this, but I'm startled I didn't see it earlier. When one door closes...